20th August 2023. 1 min read
Not something that I have heard of from my era
Nor did I witnessed it in my parents’ time
Self love is self care
After a seemingly unending battles with growing up angst
Struggles with studies to find a place in the working world
Then dealing with work expectations, results and ambitions
Navigating a relationship to bring it to fruition
Meeting Children’s and spouse’s needs and demands
Fulfilling duo family’s expectations and responsibilities
Finally in my senior years, a time to focus on my goals to be fulfilled and happy
To achieve my long awaited dreams
What were they?
To restart, leave out those that were attained thus far
And strive to achieve what are still achievable
Like having the blessings of pink health
Like attaining the dreams I had yearned but had no time for
Like the specific goals that were left on the back burner
I now have time for them
Life’s thrilling journey beckons once more and seems almost infinite.
Indeed as you quietly meditated and reflected by the chao phraya river in Bangkok during the mid August weekend of sat 19th, 2023, a deep awakening stirred up in you and you suddenly realised now that in your senior years what are the goals you ought to pursue esp those left on the back burners.
Having gone thro life in all its earlier stages, from childhood, school days, to SIA ambassadorship, to tertiary education, marriage and family commitments and now busy in your own professional career, having achieved much , cumulatively, along the way, overcoming challenges to which you didn’t buckle , then in the moment of your enlightenment, you realise you will not be held in bondage anymore, by sentient feelings of a perplexing kind of anger, ill-will, hatred, envy, etc where the more you try to exert control, the greater will be its resistance, in accordance with Newton 3rd law of motion.
Then, it is in releasing or giving , that you receive, the paradox as mentioned in the Beatitudes.
So with the blessing of good and pinkish health, you realise, there is a thrilling journey lying ahead of you and it stretches to infinity to the KOG .
A beautiful and liberating poem indeed where all negative thoughts are held in captivity to be placed under the Words of the Book, where wabi sabi philosophy will be irrelevant and cease to exist. .